I know I say a lot of things that most people don't agree with. Things like that people would be better off without me, that I deserve to be depressed that I am a bad person. That things will never get better. I know you all disagree but what if I'm right? What if I should just give up because all these things are true. In the end I have caused all this pain I see around me but what if there's no fixing it. I wish people could just live my life for a day. Then maybe they could see all I have to deal with. Then maybe they could truely tell me how to end this pain. But the truth is there is no one like me here or irl. All there can be is me, doubting my abilities because all that I've caused myself is pain and torture. All I do is destroy everything I touch. So maybe I am right. Maybe.