I am sorry to hear all that you've gone through recently ~ and without much support from others. I'm sure that wasn't easy at all.

Have you worked with a T at all? You certainly need emotional support. Perhaps there are support groups of some kind that meet in your area? Like: Anxiety support? Perhaps as time passes, you will feel more comfortable sharing some of your own personal experiences with the group or a couple of the members that you "click" with. Then, friendships are born and you're no longer alone in this new state.

It does take a little bit of an initial reach out from you ~ but it's worth every effort! I'd be happy to join your list of friends, but I live several states away from NY. *sigh* Gentle hugs sent your way....