Continued:
You said,
"What do you do when everything is a reminder of the days where everything was okay?
When everyone thinks you should snap out of it?
When the people you are supposed to rely on break you? What do you do? "

IDK, because I've been stuck in "grief" stage for a long time - When people tell me to just forget all I've lost,
or that the future will bring me better things, better life,
I just want to smack them and say shut-up.

I want my old life back - I want my home back, I want my son back, I want everything back (too much to list, all that I lost) -
WE need to just guard/protect our spirits, because we may never get anything back.

I lost my spirit, I've been beat up too bad, too long, and that's how you sound too,
so for now my best advice is we need to take a break and take care of ourselves for a little while, so the pain doesn't get worse, and maybe it may ease up a little, soon...
Hugs- Gotta go.
P.S. If all coping skills completely gone, you need to go to doctor or hospital,
because when pain is most severe, (unbearable) and you can't take a break from the pain,
it's not a good time to make such an important decision, as life or death -

Things I keep doing to keep hanging on - Advice is to me as well as you, because there has to be some other solution, better than death - -So I'm hanging on, by a thread, to hopefully find it.
IDK - But few choices left, when things this bad, then to try to ease the pain a little, by taking a break, to shut our brains off a little to survive.
- Not sure I can, but I'll keep trying a little longer, and hope you do too.
Good Night.