I feel stuck. It's not because I want to. Don't ask me why I can't let it go. I want to, and I'm making every effort.

I feel suicidal. It's not because I want to die, but just want to escape from the pain which never stops. It looks only exit from the dark tunnel.

I feel anxious. Don't call me stupid for that. I want to act as everyone do. Just I can't.

I never want to be anxious or depressed. It's same as not one want to get flu when life is already hard and busy. I am trying to get out of it, but there's always another challenge. It's not because I'm lazy.

I'm working, smiling, but I'm not OK. I just don't know how to ask help.