Actually as part of my exploration regarding my gender, there has been the fear that I would find the girl in me and what would that mean in terms of how I have understood myself for the better part of my life. With t's patience ... I don't even think it was understanding... just patience for me to get through the obsessive fear thinking and get to the place of.. uhh duh... girls don't feel this way, they don't describe things the way I do. I actually in an almost breakdown state, asked her what it feels like to be a girl, because I've never (not in memory) felt like a girl.

I bet that was one of her strangest conversations with someone that was not in a psychotic state.