I'm really struggling. I want to sleep all the time, I have absolutely zero interest in anything and I've left my apartment all of twice since the end of November. In the past I've always experienced a depressive episode after a major manic one, like the one I experienced that started last spring. Ive been on Seroquel since August and Lithium since the end of September. It's helped the mania but I'm not sure if those drugs are supposed to help with bipolar depression.

I also feel completely emotionally dead. I'm wondering if that is from the lithium. I've heard that can happen and I absolutely hate it. My mom (who works in mental health) tells me it's one of the reasons bipolar people often quit their meds. If I'm being honest I want to quit taking them. I feel like I'm taking them more for the other people in my life instead of for myself. I feel really awful. I don't see my Pdoc until the end of the month because he's on vacation. I really don't know what to do...well....except sleep. At least when I'm asleep I don't know how miserable I am.