Yes, I think it is. I avoided treatment of cancer until I though it had time to spread but it hadn't. In a sane moment I decided to get treatment and am now cancer free. That was 15 years ago and I feel like it was an attempt at suicide.
I'm sorry you are feeling this way.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha