I couldn't handle the side-effects of Lamictal. It gave me weird thoughts and had one episode of all the sudden wanting to kick the walls out of our new house for no reason. (Thank God I didn't do it.) I felt like a whole different person that I didn't even know. Geodon made me have weird little tics and movements.

I had a really bad episode of mania yesterday on this increased dose of Depokote where I got really upset at the store with my husband. I had more irritability and anger than I can remember. I remember being okay until a baby started crying. Then, I couldn't find something, and almost sat down in the floor and began crying. Then, I couldn't find my husband in the store and was suddenly just lost and didn't know what to do. Later, he had pulled on my purse at the meat counter and I got furious, he mentioned it to me later, and we had an argument, which I sort of agged on and called him horrible names, and the mania ended the way it always ends...me crying hysterically, having to be calmed down, and then going to bed.

I don't think I need to be on this medicine at this dose!!! I am pretty scared. I can't take acting like that, plus physical symptoms on top of that.