Hello, I have some symptoms that I think are signs of major depressive disorder.

So they are: apathy, hopelessness, irritability, lost of interest in everything (including sex (or in my case masturbation and pornography)), insomnia by night, excessive sleep by day, increased appetite and weight gain, suicidal thoughts...

Maybe I forgot some other minor, but I mentioned all I have problem with. Apathy and loss of interest and sleep problems being the most bothersome!

So am I in major depressive disorder or what? I cry, sometimes... But really not that often. I do not feel sad per se, but rather hopeless and suicidal. Like life isn't worth living or life is so boring that nothing can be interested to me.

I am currently on Fluvoxamine 150mg daily. But I think it doesn't do anything at all to me. It doesn't help. I will talk to my psychiatrist next time about all this, but change of medication is inevitable. Although I lost most of interest in pornography and in that way I relaxed, I still wouldn't like to take antidepressant which destroys it again (I posted topic on sexual health where I took finasteride and now just recovered from it, so I do not want to go in same direction again). Now, I guess my psychiatrist will insist on SSRIs. I tried some time Paxil and it just made orgasm impossible to achieve. I was still sometimes "hungry" for porn, but when I wanted to have it as way of relaxing I couldn't. It didn't remove sexual thoughts like finasteride did. That medicine really wiped out all sexual in me. If one AD could do same to me, I would gladly take it, cause I would improve other fields I am really bad in. Apathy, insomnia, hypersomnia, loss of interest in hobbies, suicidal thoughts... I wouldn't care if my sex life is obliterated then. But I don't want to have anorgasmia but still want to "relax" sometimes.

So, what works for you might not work for me. Wellbutrin looks like great AD, but it actually increases sex drive and since I am basically zero to none chance to have real sex it would be a burden too. But I would like to hear what would maybe be the best option for me to switch to? Fluvoxamine doesn't do anything at all to me. I wouldn't want something which increases weight, since I already have over 200lbs.

Thank you for your advice and hope to solve this out soon. I am really torturing every day. Cannot sleep by night than whole day I sleep.