((((((( hugs )))))))
I'm not seeing a therapist because of being burned by a **** of a t who used up nearly all my funds...consulted a couple of others, did not click..

I'm going to explore finding another therapist (one of those I didn't click with might have been ok if I had given it more time..we sort of clicked but I was wary..)

Sometimes I waste my time because of my curiosity though

(Btw my curiosity isn't linked to crossing any boundaries, I didn't cross boundaries with that sub optimal t either, he was simply a ****..)

I also realise that I didn't anything like explore my past (lack of trust, turned out I was right not to trust that individual) (irl)

I worry that if you push t's boundaries she may react by withdrawing etc...

Have you done much journaling?

(I'm sorry, I don't read much in this forum, but will do more as I'm unable to take meds and have nothing to add to posts about meds in other forums )