Yeah, I was just finding some of the input a little more difficult to bear than I anticipated. It made me realise how vulnerable I feel at the moment and I need containment to explore this stuff, which I guess isn't in abundance on a public forum.
I emailed T as I started to make sense of some of the feelings (a lot of the input was really helpful for helping me get to the bottom of what was going on) and I felt sooo much better after I had written it all down and sent it to T (I was fighting back tears before that, which is very unusual for me!).
Thanks for asking.