Sometimes being able to smile and put on a front on the outside makes it that much harder. I really commend you for being strong enough to do that. But I also know how difficult that can be. Because you can't open up to those people you act so strong in front of.

It sometimes feels like a double life. Someone told me today I needed to be "normal" again, and I laughed because the real me is the depressed me. The front they see is just an act.

I understand and I am so sorry you feel this way. If you ever need to talk to anyone, I'm here to listen.

I'm glad you're seeing a therapist. That can help. Just saying the words can bring a sense of release. And talking to people here. You don't need to put on that smile here. You're among friends.