Coming back with another question. Hope that's ok.

*** This could be triggering ***

I met with my counselor and shared with him the fragment that was brought back so strongly. It's not a good place.

We did EMDR and dialed down the intensity of it to about a 6 on a scale of 0-10. I felt better and that part of me felt relief at being known. That's a good thing.

There is relief and anxiousness now. I'm feeling stretched in time between then and now, questioning if I can trust the fragment I'm seeing to be real.

It's kind of like I'm screwed either way. Not a good place and I don't know how to explain it, without going into detail that I would rather not do.

I've tried to journal about it, but it just feels like confusion and questions.

It's not helping that my husband is on an extended holiday vacation and I feel like I'm being watched. I know I'm not myself, but I don't know how to shut this down and ground myself. It's too real. I can't explain to him. He wouldn't understand or he would get angry because he doesn't understand.

Has anyone else been here? Does anyone have any suggestions?

They would be greatly appreciated!!

Thank you for hearing me!