Thanks everyone for sharing and commenting. I have a visit with my pdoc on Monday, I should probably bring some of this to her, although at times I think I'm perfectly fine. I'm really not though. I don't think I'm in the healthiest place to date.....at times I think I can, but I can't at the moment. I want to think I can handle these situations the way 'anyone else' would who does not experience hypo/mania/mixed episodes, but I'm just too impulsive and vulnerable right now. I don't know if I'll be able to follow through with my own advice, but that's where my pdoc can step in, I'm hoping, before it escalates.
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Originally Posted by Theresa1991
I am in the same situation. I went through two broken relationships within one year, met another guy whom I still like but who had to go abck to Mexico because of his visa. Shortly before he left I had isolated myself a lot and then had the idea with the dating app. It completely went out of hands. I started having dates with two persons a day, writing non-stop, everybody asking me when we could meet up again.
I started sleeping less because I was seeing so many people at a time and it got really ugly in sexual terms. Hurt my self-esteem. At that moment I didn't perceive it as strange to be with five different men in one week. Now I just want to lose most of those contacts and not see anyone anymore but it is hard to stop. Anyway stopped using the app.
I am still wondering at this point if that isn't just "normal" for a 25 year old single. Does anyone think this is normal or does it sound manic?
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When I was 25, I engaged in a lot of these patterns, except I wasn't using dating sites.....it was more randomly meeting others at places and doing really impulsive things. I was also very manicky though and had other signs....racing thoughts, grandiosity, lack of sleep, before I crashed and burned. Although it's normal for people to be more impulsive anywhere from adolescence to mid-twenties (and even a bit beyond that), I think it comes down to comparing it to how you normally are at baseline and if these behaviors were intense, frequent, impulsive, and damaging....along with the other symptoms of hypo/mania (ie racing thoughts, lack of sleep, etc). At least that's the way I look at it, more or less.
(((Hugs))). I'm sorry you've gone through these experiences and that they were self-damaging. I've definitely been there, and the pain associated with some of these experiences still lingers to a degree. It's extremely likely in mania and hypomania for those of us with BP do things we wouldn't normally do or engage in excessive patterns of behavior. That's why it hurts so much when we come back down.