First, I discourage anyone from relying upon the internet to self diagnose.

What I do encourage you to do is to be more of an advocate for yourself. If you haven't already, ask serious questions. Not just the "what's" but the "why's" and "how's". Press your healthcare team for answers and advise them of your concerns.

After my first hospitalization I was diagnosed with BPD which I just knew had to be wrong. This after only a questionaire conducted by a student. I never even saw a psychiatrist until I went through the discharge routine.

I pressed my then GP who diagnosed me instead with Depression and Anxiety (which I do in fact suffer from). Again, I knew that couldn't be the whole story. And, of course, when he prescribed an SSRI I ended up in the hospital with mania. It took 4 months from the first hospitalization before I was finally diagnosed with BP. That seems to feel right to me.