I use to feel that way when I was a lot younger. I even went
to a support group. That did not work out. I finally realized
that it was okay to be alone, instead of being with people
who treated me... well bad. My self -esteem was very low
at this time.I read a lot of books,took self esteem classes, and finally got mad at myself for being a push over.
Today, I am very independent . I love being alone.There is a saying: Better to be alone, than being accompanied by bad company. I am so sorry you have been going through
this. I know from experience it is a bad way to live. I also
had a unforgettable childhood.

I will keep you in my prayers, and remember we are never
ALL alone. If you know what I mean.
Take care of yourself. :