I'm not well. I has now been 10 weeks since my bloodwork raised the alarm about my health. I am still undergoing test after test. I just want some answers and for this to be over. It has really pulled me down. Add to this a particularly tough and stressful Christmas to New Year's week for myself and loved ones and I feel at my emotional limit. I am exhausted and am beginning to just no longer care - for myself anyway. It seems as though there has been a reversal of roles; I have become the support person as my loved ones go through the crises of their own. I am over stretched not to mention stressed out from containing my own needs and emotions to myself. I want a shoulder to vent to and unload upon but just feel now is the inappropriate time. Yes I have my own physical health concerns but they pale, I feel, in comparison to brain surgeries and strokes.

I feel close to giving up.