Last night my friend lost her mom to cancer and I'm really trying to hold it together. I've lost so many people now when anyone I know dies, I usually slip into a deeper obsessive/depressed state. I think of my siblings that were "miscarried", the abrupt death of my best friend, the loss of my favorite grandparents and my friend's children. I don't mean to dwell on this, but I can't seem to help it. I just want to crawl under the covers and not come out ever.