Dear divine1966,
Thank you for answering. It's something even I feel....coz sometimes distance makes the heart grow fonder.

Dear Erebos,
Thanks a ton for the reassurance. You got that completely right. I need to learn to stand up for myself. I just want a little solitude to hear my own voice, living with others just drowns it.

Dear BipolarMama31,
Thanks...I want to make relationship with my family stronger too....right now, it's really dysfunctional. I'm glad your relationship with your mom became stronger.

Dear MickeyCheeky,
Thanks for answering. I know it's my choice, but I still feel enormously guilty for exercising it. I am also really scared to move.

Dear Bill3,
Thanks for replying.

To answer your questions....

There are no consequences. My family may doubt if I can live alone (even I doubt that) but that's about it.

Honestly, I feel really guilty to move out. But I also know my mom is emotionally shut down. 90% of conversation in my family is "nonsense"....we really don't communicate to each other. I feel living alone...atleast for a while would help me find myself. At this stage....I don't know what I feel is 'normal' or not....but I feel really agitated fitting everyone else into my life and I feel emotionally drained. I just desperately need a little solitude. I hope some time apart would heal me and renew relationships.