Hello hur111: to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! I see this is your first post here. May the time you spend here be of benefit.

I'm sorry there is not much of anything I can offer with regard to your experiences. However, I think if you keep posting here on PC, & reading & replying to other members' posts, over time you will likely gain some valuable insight. Once you have had your first 5 posts reviewed & approved, you will also be able to join in on the conversations in the various chat rooms here on PC. And you may well find that to be of benefit as well. Good luck!