Those silences. I absolutely hate them! They don't happen as often as they used to thankfully but when they do it's uncomfortable. I don't get how anyone would be okay with it. It's one thing to take some time to reflect or ponder something but to sit there in the almost unbearable silence, it's awful. When it happens I'm drawing blanks, which makes me anxious, which makes me shut down further. If it goes on too long she'll ask me what I'm thinking or whats going on. Honestly I don't find it to be helpful to sit in that discomfort, it feels cruel.
I'm constantly reflecting about my experiences in therapy, it's quite a mix of various thoughts.