I find myself questioning my therapy. I guess many of us do, it is after all deep intense work. As of late I find myself feeling stuck. Just not sure about it. There is much that I am thankful for, I no longer have thoughts about suicide. I feel more self aware. Despite these gains I'm questioning. It was another post asking if others therapists help the client along ( or something like that) which prompted me to second guess a few things, especially the silences. Actually, it's not so much the silences it's the way in which my therapist responds to it. Most often she doesn't. Admittedly these silences are not as frequent as they used to be but they happen enough to where I'm concerned. Then there are some ridiculous boundaries regarding her articulating her feelings regarding me. I won't go into that because I have in other posts. Another concern is when she responds to my email she will say something like " I have so many thoughts regarding x,y,z .. I look forward to discussing when we meet " and yet when I bring the topic up in session she throws out two or three sentences and that's it. Feels pretty lame to me considering she had " so many thoughts ".
Perhaps it's time for a break. Do any of you waver in your feelings of your therapeutic experiences?