When depressed/suicidal, the tendency is to think that what happens very random and often quite bad; that you are on a path in life that you do not like and cannot alter; the die is cast so what is the use of sticking around anyways.

Other times, I believe there is a guiding hand. That we can make this world a better place through acts of kindness. That bad things happen so that we can become more humble, patient and kind. If my life was easy, would I be even more arrogant, insensitive, etc? Many of the things I am dealing with in my life are the result of actions I and other people in my life made long ago. If I can make better decisions, I can have a positive impact on others and myself. So I hope everything happens for a reason.....