(((ww)))) I think now you can hear what I wanted to first say to you: the very fact that you are asking about being psychotic shows that you are not. Even if a friend's death caused a "psychotic episode" your whole reality would be distorted, and again, that you were aware enough to realize something isn't right, shows this is not the case with you.

It does show that you do "know" she's gone... but are still trying to deny it. It's still part of the process...

I'm sorry for your loss.