Could use some good thoughts. It's been a month basically since I got out of the hospital. When I first got discharged everything seem as if it was starting to look up and I was feeling better. Now it feels like I'm starting to step back into my deep depression and I can't seem to stop it. I'm afraid to call my t because I'm pretty sure she'll try to send me back to the hospital. Today was a rough day at work as my anxiety was through the roof. All I could do was keep myself busy to try and keep my mind off of all the bad stuff. I just wish this roller coaster would stop, I wanna get off. I don't see my pdoc for at least another 2 1/2 weeks.

Edit: I just called and left a message for my therapist. If she doesn't call me back soon I'll try calling my pdoc.