I keep going because of my husband, family and pets.

I attempted to take my life once and now I realize what it would really do to them. My husband, twin sister and mother would probably all contemplate following me if I gave up. My niece would also grow up without her aunt. My cats miss me when I am only gone for ten minutes so I can only imagine how they would feel if I never came home.

I also keep going because I don't want my mental illness to win. I want to win this battle, then hopefully help others win their battles as well.

I also think of all the things I would miss out on if I was gone. I would miss out on my niece growing up into a beautiful woman and getting married some day. I would never have kids, and be able to watch them grow into adults to have their own kids and become a grandma. I wouldn't be able to grow old with my husband and have adventures with him and be his number one fan and support. I would miss out on so many things life has to offer.

I want to win this battle and be able to have a beautiful life some day. I know it never goes away completely, but I want it to be bearable.