Thank you all for the kind and supportive thoughts. It means a lot.

There's a lot of really good suggestions here so thank you for those as well.

It's ironic that when we're at our worst we have to go through this process of finding help. It's so counter intuitive.

I'm hoping I get lucky this first time out but if not, I'll certainly revisit all of your suggestions and decide how to proceed.

It's also kind of ironic that I'm so anxious to start a process that I always fear. Denial, minimization and detachment are my M.O. so going someplace where I have to deal with this stuff head on goes against my nature.

Thanks again, all of you.

Cyran0