I've been to two AA meetings. That was probably two months ago. I don't remember which one it was but we were all leaving (all women) and someone said, "Don't keep drinking and keep coming back!" And I thought to myself, what a *****! I had my 2nd appointment with my therapist a few days ago and told him what was said. He was shocked. So I'm currently looking for another AA group. My father also is an alcoholic, as was his father. So yeah, it's in my genes too.

But I'm tired of hiding it. I'm tired of going to different stores every day so they won't know how much I drink. I was at the grocery store yesterday and a guy came up all chatty and it was the liquor store employee. Wanted me to know he had a new job. I hide my drinking from my husband. Now, what if we had been shopping together?? How would I have explained that? [emoji33]

You're not alone. This morning I went out for breakfast. Went through the drive through. And instead of buying a bottle I decided to spend the money on the people in line behind me. I killed two birds with one stone. I did a favor for someone else and a favor for myself at the same time. I think that's going to be what I do. Maybe. Every time I want to buy a bottle maybe I'll just go through a drive through. ...... just a thought.