For anyone who read my upsetedness at my friend's boyfriend who got very upset at me yesterday and said not so nice things to me. I spent the day an anxious, cry-ey mess.
I left it with him saying I was truly sorry, never meant to hurt him intentionally, and will give him space to cool down.
Today he responded (verbatim): "Yeah. Sorry I over reacted yesterday. Sometimes your behavior really pisses me off though. I'm tired of it. It builds frustration in me. That's all I have to say really.
I pondered on what to say. It didn't feel like a true apology, and that he still has dismissed me from his life, which will be hard as me and his girlfriend are good friends. I responded that I understand am am sorry, but I wasn't aware he was that upset. I said that I could only change my actions in the future, but if he wanted to meet up in person to talk, let me know.
Haven't heard back from him.
I still feel shitey, but also, I am really angry. My T said that I am doing the right things (even though I want to go screaming in the other direction), and that he overreacted emotionally and verbally, so she is proud of me...but I do not want to upset people that I care about.
A part of me really wants just to be like "eff you, R"...but I can't partially because he is my good friend's boyfriend, and partially because I don't like being a d!ck to people. I just don't know what else I can say.
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