I know what you mean. I don't feel like I'm really that close to anyone, and I'm telling you I'm not! I guess I have my b/f.... He's pretty close to me, but other than that, it's like I'm all alone. I cling to my b/f entirely too much, and push everyone else away. I don't think anyone but my b/f even knows how sad I get... I called my mom up from campud crying after I flunked my math exam, but outside of that... I've given her no reason to think that there is anything wrong in my life. I feel like a liar, but my mom worries too much and maybe it's best that she doesn't know. She's under a lot of stress right now, what with going through a divorce and all. I expect too much from my b/f. Like he has to be my one man support system. I'm sometimes scared to death that he's going to leave me, and then I feel guilty for thinking that, because I know he hates it when I worry about that. I just wanna be all better! I want to have some friends, but I never make them easily, and college has been really rough. I haven't even made friends with my roommates. I don't know how to make friends. I guess it's better, though, that way I don't have to bring other people down to my level. Sorry I totally strayed from the topic at hand and went into some lame sob story. Sorry.