well, i survived through session. it actually wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. she asked me why it was hard to hear her be sortof "harsh" like that...i said well i dont really think anyone enjoys that. she didnt really say why she said those things, but she gave me a few options. she said, "maybe it was some tough love, maybe i was just frustrated that day and it showed, just like any other human being, or maybe i was testing your limits to see how much you could handle." she said she thinks sometimes i need a little "tough love", but i also need sympathy and empathy. i'm not sure which, but i don't really care. because she cares, and i know she does. she told me that she'd trust me with her 2 year old son! she said, "i know you have a good head on your shoulders and if my son needed to be taken to the emergency room and i couldn't that you would and you would be able to speak up for him, but if it was for yourself, you wouldn't be able to speak up." so true. and then, the session ended so perfectly i couldn't possibly be mad at her anymore, especially since she just told me she'd be away all next week. . but, we scheduled a phone session. AND, i totally forgot i had mentioned this to her, but when it was over and we both stood up she said, "do you want me to give you a hug?" i practically jumped in her arms and the feeling was amazing. a little unfamiliar, but amazing, and i hope it happens every time. now i just miss her, and i have to wait 2 weeks to see her, and a week before i even talk to her on the phone. unless somehow i can call her sooner. but i'm still in la la land about that hug <3 <3 <3