Thank you all for your support. I am so sorry some of you, like me have to deal with a vindictive ez and his crazy family. I swallow my pride, and so what he says constantly so we keep the peace. He will get pissy around my aon. He is hypermanic almost 100 percent of the time. He drives recklessly, acts recklessly, etc. He is one of the "I don't wanna be medicated because I like being this way" people. If he can't start taking medicine for our son, he never will. My son's how he is as well. He is always begging me not to tell his dad about certain things. Cayden (my little guy) and I have such a close relationship. He knows he can tell me anything and I won't tell his dad. For all my BP, depression, mood swings, etc. I am the stable parent. I seem to be able to transform when I'm around him so that he doesn't know anything is wrong with me. My 17yo knows. I've explained all of it

So sorry! I should probably post this to the board and maybe it can give someone else in my situation comfort knowing they're not alone.

I do a lot of praying.