I was a very musically sensitive person and it was a huge part of my life prior to my hospitalization back in October. I was put on Risperidone and Lithium then, and it's more or less been like this ever since, though my dose is much lower than it was. Since I have been tapering, I've noticed some emotions coming back, but music still sounds flat to my ears. My thoughts are also limited in scope and I'm not creative; often I'm preoccupied with a repeating negative loop about how I wish my mental state was better. It's a form of depression that may not be linked to the meds, but having gone four months without being able to feel much to a Mahler symphony or Bach Concerto really bothers me.

I don't currently work, though I started taking a math class at a community college. The lack of activity may be a part of this, but I think that maybe I'm a little trapped in fear from the event of my mental breakdown. And it also may just be a reaction to the meds. Has anyone else experienced anything like this?