So I have a question.
I have what I think may be a repressed memory (very strong emotional/physical responses to certain triggers, the ways I acted as a kid/feel now, etc) but I also had an arguably traumatic childhood (dad worked 24/7, emotionally unavailable, mom an alcoholic/prescription drug addict who was emotionally abusive/manipulative) and I have all the symptoms of ptsd except for the flashbacks. I’ll have extreme emotional responses to things (ie mild to moderate disassociation when watching movies with abuse, etc), and I have nightmares but not about anything specific, usually having to protect my siblings from an unknown person trying to hurt us. Is it possible to have ptsd from a lifetime of “mild” trauma and/or things that I can only half remember (ie body sensations coupled with terrible emotional feelings and a taste in my mouth associated with things that no 5 year old should know about)? Am I just making it up? Wanting to know just for my own peace of mind.