So as many of you know my t and I have a very turbulent relationship. It's got progressively worse this year and after my last session I realised that I am not as attached to my t as I used to be. It's developed into more of a hatred for her.
Well today I saw a new t. She was a very strange lady. She wears really weird clothes and lives on a farm in the middle of nowhere. She had these piercing grey eyes that looked right into your soul. I wasn't sure about her appearance and I thought this is good for my attachment to have a not so attractive t. I was really happy to be trying a new t. I didn't even miss old t.

This t was very kind and compassionate. She is very earthy, no make up and smells like manure from the farm but I kinda liked that about her. Old t was very done up, dresses, heels, lots of make up. Now that I am home I haven't stopped thinking about her, how can my transference be that strong after only one session [emoji27]