I moved to a different state and moved in with a friend back in late August, I am Bipolar/w Depression and major anxiety to the occasional panic attack..
Before I came out to the Houston area I was always under a doctors care being prescribed anti depressants, bipolar meds and be Benzodiazepines for the anxiety/panic, I've been on these combination of meds most of my life..

I've been here since late August and I have been looking for a new doctor right away.. it took me until November and the first appointment was supposed to be a couple of days ago, I have been hanging on that appointment for dear life..
I even called a few days ahead, and all looked fine. However when I got to the office it was a different story. They claimed they contacted me to change the appointment (They didn't), and I was quietly pushed aside then given a repeat appointment for 4 months later.. 4 months! Now like I've said I have been off my meds, I am extremely unstable, I have not slept consistently for months and there is only one place in my entire area that accepts medicaid and Texana is the only game in town.. I have looked and looked and Medicaid has not helped me one bit.. I have been hung up more times that I can count and I have never had so many issues finding a psychiatrist in my entire life let alone being off my meds this freaking long..

It takes a ton of energy just to write this here as my concentration is **** and I just got off a severe panic attack which took the wind out of my sails.

I'm desperately trying to find a doctor that accepts medicaid, and I'm getting nowhere and I feel myself being peeled apart as each day passes, I'm just severely crippled by depression and severe mood swings that makes living just about unbearable.

My question is, where can I find a doctor? I have looked, I checked my phone book, made a ton of calls and all except the place I first went to would even talk to me.. I live in the Sugar Land/Fortbend County area and I just can't find any help.. Yeah another doom and gloom story but I'm close to losing it.. so close.. I'm not one to usually ask for help.. I hate asking since I'm usually so resourceful.. But I'm extremely desperate and I only want to check into a hospital unless every option is expended .. I have tried my local ER, only to wait for 12-13 hours in a gown.. given .5 of Ativan and sent home with a list of places that DOES NOT accept my insurance..(Medicaid).

Thank you for taking the time to listen to my useless drivel.. I'm out of gas and I can't fight anymore..