I have dealt with depression and had a variety of different diagnosises, I get it. I can't say it gets better but it does get easier. The suicidal thoughts get less intense. I have been like this for 10.5 years, maybe longer. I don't know exactly how long but I know that by working with a 12 step program it does get easier. You see, there are a lot of horror stories in my past and the steps help me to see I am not alone! If I am not alone, you are not alone!!

I know life hurts and it doesn't seem like you can be happy, I've been there! Still am but now I can help other people and that helps. Take you're struggles and turn them into a way to help ALL people.