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I can understand. It's the same way with me. I hang on to them, yet at the same time I do things that I know will push them away from me. Messed up thinking, huh?

It's the fear of being ourselves, of showing our pain and needs to others. It terrifies me no end. No matter what people do, I constantly doubt them and just wait for them to mess up (or so I think they will).

I just sent my pdoc a letter, after promising him basically that I would leave him alone.............[sigh]. Now I have to worry about that.

I'm glad that you were open and honest here.