While it seems (at least to me) that other people thrive on being sociable and talking to others, I don't have this urge inside me to talk to people and socialize. I avoid all social interactions at all costs, even over the phone. I don't know exactly why, but I know that I don't have this impulse to socialize. I've never had it, even as a kid. I acted like socializing sometimes, but have never been motivated by some urge or strong feelings to do so (for example, I know people like to talk with each others about themselves, but I don't). It was like a mask I put to appear acceptable. But when you don't have this intrinsic impulse to socialize, it's hard to keep acting, and people will eventually see your (avoiding or indifferent) behavior as no longer acceptable and rude. Even when I try, I guess it makes me appear not genuine. The irony is that I don't like being alone, too. The loneliness and boredom are eating me from the inside. This makes me depressed and thus more isolated. This is a real struggle for me. I wonder if there is someone here who has/had the same experience, and have been able to overcome this issue successfully and how? In other words, is it possible to "create" this urge or feeling (call it whatever) that pushes you to socialize, or it's something you either have or you don't?