Can somebody who has dealt with this longer than I have (about a year now) explain to me how it is possible to be near-suicidal and so hyper you can't stop moving at the same freakin' time?

And as long as I'm asking dumb questions, why does this always happen at night? Lately I'm hyper all day, start getting a teeny bit depressed in the evening, and then when it's time to go to bed, no matter how exhausted I am, I'm in hyperdrive. If I have to be manic, I'd really rather be in hyperdrive during the day when I need the energy!

This is one frustrating disease.