hello, I have medical probs and eating is painful plus I am so sick afterwards. I only 'eat' (drink ensure) at night because I can't eat then go to work. I'm supposed to be fed thru a tube in my bowel but I don't want bits hanging out of me, I'd rather die from malnutrition but that's my choice and right to refuse medical intervention.

I don't have any suggestions, just lots of empathy.
Do you have a physical problem that makes eating painful or is it psychological? There are lots of medical probs that can cause discomfort when eating.
Is it easier to have fluids rather than solid food? or is there particular foods you find easier than others? even if you just stick with the more comfortable foods at least it will be something. I find it is better to eat what I can and what I feel like, not to worry about what all the nutritionists say, I figure something is better than nothing. If you can drink some form of supplement that would be good.

It is really hard, and people don't understand, but hang in there.
Start with small amounts of foods that are a little easier to manage and work from there