sometimes therapy feels so counter-productive. my new T said to me last week "I'm trying to figure out how to help you". And the voice in my head answered silently "Ah, but you see, there is nothing to be done - you can't help me, it's just not possible". It always feels like 2 steps backwards, and sometimes one step forwards. Free... maybe you feel like this, too, but I feel that I want help - I desperately want it. And there's nothing that can be done at the same time.
It is so frustrating. The T wants to know how to help - H*** if I knew that, I wouldn't be there, I could just do it myself.
(((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))
Kiya