I think I'm in love with someone. This person is a very good friend. They trust me very much and respect me too, BUT they are already in love with someone else very deeply. I just wish for this person's happiness, so I'm not gonna make things awkward and risk harming this great friendship we have. This person has made it clear to me that there's only one person in their life and it's not me.

Things have changed for me because of this, I look forward to getting up and meeting my 'friend', I also try to look presentable, which is something I haven't cared about in a long while. I'm taking better care of myself. I also feel like I have a good friend that cares about me, which is something I've always wanted.

At the same time, I worry too much about 'losing' this friend. Two or three days without contact makes me feel so bad. I have accepted the fact that it's ok as long as I can be friends with this person, no matter what.

You can love someone secretly and never tell them or anyone else about it, right?