So, I haven't posted in a long long time. I did the irresponsible thing and stopped taking most of my meds well over a year ago. I'm at a place now where I'm close to breaking. I have a appointment with my proc very soon. Haven't visited him in over a year as well. My manic moments have gone from creative and euphoric to irritable, agitated, and filled with self harm. I know I need to get back to my meds, but have never had a mix that I was satisfied with. ..... with all that's happening now I'm open to just being knocked out and removed all together so that I'm not such a detriment to those around me. .... all that said I've kept all this hidden from everyone but my wife. I have a talented 12yo dtr, a healthy 3week old girl, and a successful business. But that's all in jeopardy. I guess what I'm wondering is if those of you out there have a cocktail recommendation. I'm hoping to keep some energy and maybe even personality. I've researched and am wondering about Zoloft and abilify daily with a prn sleep aid. Ive stayed on my Wellbutrin all along and take 2mg clonazepam at night for insomnia. Any thoughts on the Zoloft abilify mix?