Update and having bottomed out emotionally after the accident I am starting to feel slightly better. I am in a limbo with my husband as I need to get myself sorted first before I can start thinking about him I've cancelled the couples counselling and am having my own. I can't believe his 'I'll do anything to make this right I love you so much' lines. That should have happened last year or he should have left if he was that unhappy. Maybe I was in a different relationship!