If you do have OCD, it sounds like your compulsion is the same as mine: to seek reassurance. In behavioral therapy, people with OCD are often taught NOT to follow through with compulsions (not to seek reassurance, in this case) in order to make the obsessions less strong. At first it is hard and will make the anxiety worse, but after time, you'll learn to stop talking about your irrational concerns and push them more to the back of your mind and brush them away (where they belong, because they are irrational and not of you, but an OCD thought). Does that make sense? I hope this helps. You can learn more about this with a therapist. The book that teaches this type of behavioral therapy is called The OCD Workbook by Bruce Hyman and Charlene Pedrick.

Additionally, if you are diagnosed with OCD, your psychiatrist may try you on an SSRI (antidepressant) drug, which can help. Sometimes the medications work temporarily and you may have some trouble again and have to switch meds. That's from my experience, but everyone is different. I have a friend who has done well for years on medication with only having to switch one time.

Above all, realize there is hope for managing this illness if you have it. Try not to feed the anxiety and worry by talking about your concerns and seeking reassurance. Talk about happy things, focus on the good in life. Get lots of exercise. Try those things until you can see a doctor. HUGS!!!