No you are not alone in your thinking at all. I can very much relate to feeling disheartened by human nature. There is a quote that always comes to mind about this topic..."Human beings, who are almost unique in having the ability to learn from the experience of others, are also remarkable for their apparent disinclination to do so." -Douglas Adams , Last Chance To See.
As humans and society has evolved, "survival of the fittest" has definitely taken on some seriously dark twisted connotations. But the vantage point of history is skewed to highlight the negative as well. The present day and age is surreal in the fact that we have such rapid advances in technology. Which has allowed for a unique opportunity for humans to connect with anyone anywhere across the planet...but that kind of altruism is not profitable enough for society..so, thus the never ending human saga now has a 24/7h global stage. We all have been striving to resolve the same exact problematic equation for the entirety of our existence. Which is how to weigh and balance our internal conflict with and or against the external needs of ours and others. This is essentially the one constant endeavor of our speices. Solve the equation. The variable is the environment. The battle constant but the battlefield is also waging war on us as well. And in present day, we are being bombarded by contradictory POVs. Society will inevitably try to steer us toward the end to its own means..which generally wants to generate the most productivity out of its citizens with the least resistance to its longevity. Because society is its own entity. If you think of a society as a giant human made up of indivuals (cells), which form into groupings(organs and systems and functions) These groupings are decided by societies values and each individuals perceived "worth". So just like in every body the more healthy cells and grouping the better the body runs the more weak and or malignant cells the more unhealthy the body. Much like how what ever we put into our bodies can either help or hinder us. Society feeds us what it thinks will make us most likely to function as a whole....

Ok. That went way way off topic out to the stratosphere! So sorry . I never quite know what will come out when we start writing. Please bare with me. I'm gonna post this insanity because it obviously took effort..but I will come back and write my intended reply soon! I promise. Got a LOT of mixed nuts in our attic. Everybody's got an opinion about this one it seems.. sorry again. All i can say is Trauma is bizarre and wicked unpredictable! Be Back Soon! Hopefully to write a useful response not a frickin thesis!