im here, because i need help.. ive been with my boyfriend for 11 months or so.. and his goal from the very first time we met was to help me build a personality.. i live in a town where it doesn't have much people.. so that doesn't really help.. we've been trying and trying.. and when a problem comes.. i just sit there not knowing what to do.. in the last few months.. my reaction to all the problems, was me being mean.. and cold.. I really don't know what caused this.. is it the long fights that we face? I personally dont like someone giving me orders or raising his voice on me.. is it what caused all this coldness? his temper? i can't really control it anymore and im really lost i dont know what's happening inside me.. we broke up because of my behavior and all i do is sit there and watch.. i really do love him.. I can't lose him.. but why am i so cold? although i know that I've lost.. it's like a battle inside of me..