im so confused and overwhelmed by everything.

i dont know who i am or what im doing.

im so scared of relationships and where they can lead. i dont trust easily. but..i think i really like someone in a "more-than-friend" way.. i dont know if they feel the same way about me and there is no way i can express it right without feeling stupid.

suicide is on my mind so much agin. i try and push it away but it just keeps coming as though its the obvious answer to every problem.

schooling life is a current nightmare.

im falling into my little pit of despair again but its so deep im having trouble climbing out.

people always tell me that the answers are out there yet noone seems to be able to tell me where they are.

i am trying so hard. i dont even know if i want it anymore.