I must be really stupid or just nieve as hell. May of last year, someone I know, came to my door. She was emotionally distraught and begging for help and a place to stay. From May 8, 2016 to now, I have helped her get treatment for alcoholism, driven her to AA meetings, her doctor appointments, given her legal advice, cooked meals, driven her to mental health appointments, babysat her 2 year old, and a whole lot more.
Her father died recently and I was there for her during the funeral, viewing, driving her to the hospital he was in for care for dementia, and even when she needed someone supportive to talk to. I've even done everything I can to be an ear and shoulder to cry on.
She is a kind person but I'm starting to wonder if I'm being used again for the umpteenth time. She is back staying with her exfiance being he got temporary custody of their daughter. He had her arrested in May 2016, for pinning him against the wall. This boy is 37, weighs about 275 and is 6'4". She is 5'6" and weighs about 150. Where is the thinking in going back to a sissy little selfish boy, who rarely interacts with his little girl but thinks he's a good father because he provides for the child? Where is the thinking in going back to a boy that calls the cops for a b.s. reason?
I'm trying to help her and know she's been through a lot, but she only texts when she needs to go somewhere, and nothing else. I don't know whether to be sad, pissed, or just turn into a rhymes with trick and tell her to go to hell.
The REALLY STUPID part....I think I started to feel something for her. Why do I even bother anymore, when crap like this happens EVERY SINGLE TIME. I guess maybe I am pretty stupid thinking being kind and treating people the right way only to get discarded. I feel like I'm a bag of trash that gets thrown out when it's full. It is very difficult to be depressed, lonely, and angry as hell, because you keep allowing yourself to care for people and getting burnt.